Poema 222

I thought I was sinking and missing

And then I found myself in a pool of feelings

And lessons and traumas and all that before came 

Like that man getting out of that cave 

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Do you know what hurts the most? 

It’s not being able to lock the ghosts 

I always have to deal with this hurricane 

This big pile of things I became 

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I used to wonder how long would it last 

The pain the sorrow the never getting the best

And now I’m finally where I wanted 

Deep down swimming inside and not drowning 

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I come here at the bottom a few times a day 

When the air outside hurts and I need to escape

When somebody screams at me

When somebody I love wishes to be free

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Maybe thinking straight this is not a pool at all

Did you know the ocean has places still unknown? 

I could live inside myself for a decade before needing to breathe 

But then again I’ve just learned how to dive deep in